Imagine if human sensory had settings, and all of them were at maximum. That can be autistic life for you.
No matter how hard you try, no matter what you say, you can't make people who don't feel the same truly understand how bad it can be. Everyone thinks you're exaggerating or making excuses.
That is definitely not the case. I've had enough problems with other autistics myself.
I think what hurts the most with this person is that we got on very well until a while ago.
But, well, maybe it's also down to their NT psychologist(a person without experience with NDs).
Funnily enough, I listened to a podcast yesterday that talked to Chris Packham and he, unsurprisingly, described his senses in a way very similar to this.
I cannot imagine what it's like.
You just feel like you don't "fit in" ever.
You get the feeling everybody is looking at you weird because you know what you want to say but getting the words out and at the right time to join in the conversation is a nite mare.
It sounds like you’re describing a little bit of my husband because it seems like to a point he doesn’t understand my disability. He knows I have autism and he knows I have multiple anxiety disorders, but it’s still seems like there’s something he doesn’t understand of a small level.
Wrote this years ago about what bothers me the most
Noise, the unpleasant energy sound waves that reach my ears, disrupt the waves in my brain leading to physical and mental unsettlement. It’s like nasty hands that pull part of my brain and pound nails into it, making my whole mind and body flinch.
