It takes energy for me to choose to stand out. I am terrified of confrontation with strangers. I'm overly aware of any inconvenience that comes from my choices. I feel shame about obvious hypocrisy. It feels arrogant to think everyone around me is wrong.
These things combine to make it hard for me to wear a mask at a big fancy hotel that doesn't feel germy with my kids who I don't make wear masks (mostly I’ve just not taken them anywhere)
I think it would help if I didn't feel alone. And I know I'm not but I think I need visual reminders. Idk. Currently I'm thinking it would help to see masking.