Getting old sucks. Introspection is one element of it. I just never had time to reflect 'til now on how or why I've screwed up so badly. It's taken me this long to identify personal traits/habits that've made my life unhappy or unproductive. I now see why people tend to prefer to be where I am not.
One of the things I screwed up most was not being a great cook. I'm not even an adequate cook. (Even my high school math teacher called me an adequate mathematician, and I hated math.)
