Otto Otsky

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Otter (Sometimes a hyena, soon to be a deer) They/Them, 39, Twitch Streamer (Returning soon!), Writer, Nostalgia nerd.

18+ Occasionally NSFW.

No Minors, DNI.

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I tried something that hopefully is therapeutic. I recorded myself talking about my situation and the things bothering me. Not sure if it will help but worth a shot. Better than wishing I had people to talk to about these things and have a adult conversation.

It sucks being alone in the house while Jordan is away for work. Talking to the cat helps. I like to think he knows daddy isn't doing too well in the mental health department.

My guts do not like me this morning. I am hungry, but I have horrible indigestion. So laying on couch till things get better.

I never thought I'd see the day a video is called 5 Shrek characters I'd eat (& how I would cook them)

I'm sorry my posts are never very positive. Just struggling hard.

Apparently, this was an animation test for a Mr. Limpet remake with Jim Carry. Omg, is the concept scary. youtu.be/ahjTClTCdjs?...

Jim Carrey - Incredible Mr. Limpet Test Footage (1999)youtu.be Test footage from the never-produced Incredible Mr. Limpet remake starring Jim Carrey. Ripped from a VFX reel from the era.

I have these reoccurring dreams where I have a friend who is a sweet, handsome bear of a man. He gives me advice and supports me. Last night I had a dream where I was so upset and I went looking for him. He was gone. So the rest of the dream was me crying into a blanket. This is how I feel today

No internet for me for a bit. Doom scrolling and the news are not helping me right now. Mutual friends, feel free to message me on Discord or Telegram to check on me. Be safe, everyone.

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I know the latest NZ election outcome was less than good, but jesus.

Jordan makes zero conversation with me and is grumpy as hell, but he'll talk to the cat. Some support. My ass!

I've lost interest in so much. The only few things I do now is sleep, play one player board games, and watch The Simpsons Treehouse of Horror specials. These things don't really bring me joy. Only my cat brings me joy.

I have a lot on my mind. Been petting my cat a lot. I'm so scared right now.

Sharing because this song is so relatable and funny. youtu.be/vaG4vGsIFMQ?...

MY BRAIN WON'T SHUT THE F**K UP (Official Video)youtu.be A song about my inability to get to sleep at night due to moments of creative inspiration, stress about things I have to do, the sense of impending doom at the state of the world or all of the above! After the success of the short video of this song that I uploaded a few weeks ago as part of my A Song A Week project, I thought it deserved a full version! Piano by Tom Carradine Guitar by Adam Pitt Mixed and mastered by Lee Head Filmed at The Dorothy Pax in Sheffield on 07/07/24 by Enfys Book, Chris Tavener, Ellie Bolton, Duncan Berryman, Jan Gilhooley, Marie-Claire Warren, Meenakshi Nath, Tara Jones, Tim Woolven, Vanessa Bizzell , & Andrew Superblademan This song is now available to purchase from my website: https://tombwild.com/product/my-brain-wont-shut-the-fk-up-single/ Or to stream and download from your preferred music platform. Join me on Patreon for exclusive content: https://www.patreon.com/tombwildesq Come and see me live in the UK! Follow the link for a full list of dates and venues: https://tombwild.com/#TourDates Or follow me on Bands In Town: https://www.bandsintown.com/a/1550195... If you’d like to get monthly updates on my activities, why not join my mailing list: https://tombwild.com/contact/ Visit my website to purchase my music, get updates on new releases, shows and to purchase merchandise: https://tombwild.com/ Instagram - @tombwildesq Twitter - @tombwild Facebook - Thomas Benjamin Wild Esq

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Hearing of more and more friends of friends testing positive for Covid from AC this morning! If you went to AC, keep aware and test if you start feeling bad!!!

Honestly, the only joy I get is thinking how well my friends are doing compared to me. I'm glad they are braver than me against all the crap happening in this nation and moving forward while I hope to catch up and be a better person. I love you all. I'm sorry I'm not myself anymore.

I apologize to friends for not being more open about my mental health. There's just too much to write. Just know I am glad you're my friend and I wish you could be here. I am so alone and broken at this point. I wish for miracles every morning... And I'm still waiting.

Accidentally doom scrolled. Maybe it's for the best to see this whole world is being designed to kill everyone by human beings who are greedy and stupid. Makes me feel more alone. Should just stay in bed today.

God, my digestive tract is buggered. I just got done eating, and immediately my guts are not having it.

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So they decided to remake Time Bandits. Watched the trailer. The special effects look wicked. The humor isn't there. Watch the original.

I've spent five minutes trying to figure out how to express myself today. I'm a mess. I am sad, angry, and I don't want to stay in this house anymore. This nation is falling apart, and I'm scared. My life is falling apart, and I'm scared.

Woke up maybe 15 ago with a bad stomach ache. Now I am depressed and thinking negatively. I just want to sleep.

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Just realized I was doom scrolling on YouTube. Just seeing how bad this world is getting. Really puts me in a mood. Gonna try to stop looking at social media.

I feel so alone today.

I just want to sleep. I just want to feel better about myself. I want to feel hope. I want to feel stable. I'll never feel that again.

Still coughing with a scratchy throat. Guess I'm not visiting friends in Pittsburgh today or tomorrow. This is really hard on me. I really needed to see friends this weekend. I just give up on being happy at this point. You win depression.

Still have scratchy throat. It was well enough I went to the movies. By myself since Jordan broke up with me. Saw Inside Out 2. Was fun. Not a good film to see when you're having mental health issues. Brought me down. I just want to see my friends. I'm tired of feeling alone.

Well, today was probably a good day to not attempt to go to the con. Woke up with a sore throat and congestion. Got meds to take care of that, but now my intestinal tract is going funky. I can't win for losing. Just seems like my body is just giving out today.