nate silver has never done any polling himself; the forecasts have always been based on publicly released polls by third parties. he left 538 last year and took his models with him. 538 has new models from a different guy now; silver and 538 are each publishing their own averages and predictions.
You know how the moment you flip a coin, you realize which outcome you actually wanted? I detest Biden, but I have to admit that the prospect of another Trump term fills me with dread.