I want to be happy but I keep filling up with rage? I need a break really. This being hospitable to a random woman who isn't my mother shit..... I know it's right but I want to go burn some shit and split logs now. She's not my mom and I don't think it's weird that I'm fucking furious right now
I think we chatted about it before but your mom passed away, right? If so, your feelings are understandable but not justified. It sounds like you recognize that but can't control how you feel about it.
Totally understandable. You're not in the best place about it but you recognize that. It's not nothing. Unsolicited internet advice? Let your dad know how you're feeling so he doesn't misread the situation.
A year or so after my mom died I was thinking about how I would feel in your given situation. I told my dad I wouldn't be offended if he found someone but honestly I don't know how I would react.
I'm not angry cus I think anything bad about my father. I've let him know I'm not exactly comfortable with this situation but I understand it..... it's just when I'm helping to facilitate I get super conflicted and angry with myself. Which makes me reactionary. Not good
I can only imagine how hard that is but you recognize the problem. That's huge, give yourself credit for that. Getting past it? Not sure. Have you tried talking to a professional?
Lol of course. This woman is a tiny bit of solace my dad has found im not trying to fuck it up. Doesn't mean I'm not fucking furious about it sometimes. If she continues to be long term there will be conversations about how she talks about my dog lol which is really what sparked this.
