Again, for anyone who missed it my little brother dropped dead last Friday. My dad died days later from grief. I am on fucking fire.
And the world is on fire.
Just ended up mutually blocking over politics.
I need social media right now. I need it like air, because I am really suffering
THAT SAID
Yeah, I was so afraid of it. Our last conversation was an argument over me saying he was going to fucking die and begging him to see a doctor and him telling me he knew his duty and wasn't going to let himself go.
He then went down for a nap he never woke from.
I'm not upset our last convo was ...
that and sorry to trauma dump but not sorry I need to and I know you want me to use your shoulder. ANYWAY we'd had other convos about how if a disagreement were our last words we didn't mean them as such I just wish he had listened or I had INSISTED.
But he didn't want to be here after Mom went
I also found out 7 mos ago he stopped going to the doc and he told ME they had cut him loose in that all the stuff was going so great
nope
he just was done. This pushed him the rest of the way over the edge but I am so sad so sad so sad he suffered losing one of us. No parent, etc
My heart breaks for you. Parents not being honest about health is a continual ache in my household. I hate that his dishonesty around this is part of the profound grief you’re dealing with. So much compassion to you.
I'm so sorry you're going through this. Just to be another voice though, you were in no way responsible, nor did you even passively contribute to your Dad's death.
