Been having a lot of suicidal ideation lately. It's not impossible to overcome, I think. But I would say there's been a noticeable uptick along with my generalized anxiety problems thanks to everything going on. I think I'll be fine, but I just wanted to get a little of that off my chest.
Don't know if it helps, but I eventually just ended up angry at it. I got pissed back at life and kept going out of spite. Now the anger has burned down a bit, but the will to keep going stuck around.
You're not alone, friend. In either of those things. The situation over the last week in specific and nine years in general has been horrific. But we'll get through this. Don't do their job for them. They want us gone? They'll have to do it with their own hands.
Sometimes ya gotta speak it for a moment to confront it. It's a challenging storm to weather, but it does clear with patience and kindness to yourself. I know you'll make it through.
Sorry to hear about the struggles, friend. I’ve get GA problems too, so I relate. I don’t want it to sound empty, but please know we’d be sad to see you go, and are glad for all the big and little things you have and love to share. Take your time to take care of yourself rn.
Also, let us know if you need help. Even if it’s just silly memes, pet pics, or doodles to get through the day with a smile. Small happinesses are just as important as grand possibilities. 🧡
I think it's safe to say you have tons of people here for you. If you ever want to talk, feel free to hit me up.
For me, it helps to remember that there always more to see and do.
I've been dealing with the same kinds of thoughts, especially over the past month. I don't know if it helps to know you're not alone, but at least know people are there for you.
I've been there. In my case, I was able to reach out to the VA and get some therapy lined up and some mild anti-depressants and a low down anti-anxiety med prescribed, and that's helped me. I also learned to practice Mindfulness, and remind myself, "Your feelings are real, but they are not fact."
It was an eye opener for me several years ago when I was talking to a therapist and he asked me if I had suicidal thoughts.
Me: "I don't want to do anything to hurt myself, but I wouldn't mind if something else killed me".
Therapist: "Those are a form of suicidal thoughts."
It helped me in that it broadened my sense of what kinds of thought patterns I needed to be mindful of.
(And I know you may already be aware, but I wanted to say this for the sake of anyone that might read this that my experience might help.)
