I have felt this way since reading Michael J. Sandel’s The Tyranny of Merit. The whole idea of “deserve” is incoherent. It’s all moral luck, all the way down! Just be good to people, maybe!
The thing that really messes me up is that not only is it morally correct, it would make everyone happier, healthier and wealthier, too! The better world for everyone is right there...
I’ve been surviving. I’m not allowed to have enough money to *live*. As in Have A Life. As in Something to Live For. Becoming unhomeless has literally reduced my quality of life; for a given value of quality.